14th Nov 2012, sunny day
Woke up around 6 something and continue to sleep till 9.30 am. Settle myself and start studying.Managed to finish up 2 chapter of Management Accounting 2. Then, watched dramas and have a nap. Woke up at 5.45 pm and gosh... I promised to eat dinner at 6.oo pm. Went to meeting and ended up in McD eating french fries. I just can't figure out why.. but, am not in good mood today.
I suddenly remember of one of my friend told me before that I am like a maskot. Which everything will be hiding inside and always remain a smile in outside and no one will realize what is inside the maskot. I had been enjoying alot this few days and it's time to be back in reality. The reality that I MUST be independent and never depend on people. The reality that I must be as tough as a guy and whatever a guy can do.. I can do it too. The reality that I cant release my feeling to anyone. This would be my last post for this semester. Thanks reader. c u.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Deepavali 2012
13 Nov 2012, sunny day.
Had a nice sleep since both camp. Woke up at 9.00 am and wanted to eat Roti Canai. But, guess FCM doesnt open. So, just ended up a cup of milo and bread. Watched "high and low" movie till the end. And yea, the movie is awesome. I realized that the higher I climb, the scarier for me to drop. Once I drop, I can't start all over again. So, it's either I don't do it, or... If I do it, I will make sure it succeeded.
Went to one of the RC instructor house in Dengkil to celebrate Deepavali. It was a great journey to his house. The food is nice and his whole family is nice to us too. After the visit to his house, we went to LowYat Plaza in KL. Walked the whole plaza... went to Lot 10 to have dinner [RM 9.50] and had cendol which shared by one of my friend [RM 4.00]. Then off to KLCC. We walked all the way there and I found it interesting by just walking through the bridge itself. Spend for Dark chocolate [RM 8]. Saw one nice sweater in Uniqlo but costed RM 99. Ended up, din get the chance to buy it. Window shopping for a while, and saw a nice beaded key chain. Lovin' it!! But, it sure would be expensive. After the journey in KLCC, went to have supper.. I had satay, roasted chicken... and chinese tea.. which cost [RM 7.00]. Altogether, I had spent around RM 46 today.
Back to cyber around 12.30am. Although it was a tiring day walking here and there, but I really do find myself relaxing and enjoying the day.
Had a nice sleep since both camp. Woke up at 9.00 am and wanted to eat Roti Canai. But, guess FCM doesnt open. So, just ended up a cup of milo and bread. Watched "high and low" movie till the end. And yea, the movie is awesome. I realized that the higher I climb, the scarier for me to drop. Once I drop, I can't start all over again. So, it's either I don't do it, or... If I do it, I will make sure it succeeded.
Went to one of the RC instructor house in Dengkil to celebrate Deepavali. It was a great journey to his house. The food is nice and his whole family is nice to us too. After the visit to his house, we went to LowYat Plaza in KL. Walked the whole plaza... went to Lot 10 to have dinner [RM 9.50] and had cendol which shared by one of my friend [RM 4.00]. Then off to KLCC. We walked all the way there and I found it interesting by just walking through the bridge itself. Spend for Dark chocolate [RM 8]. Saw one nice sweater in Uniqlo but costed RM 99. Ended up, din get the chance to buy it. Window shopping for a while, and saw a nice beaded key chain. Lovin' it!! But, it sure would be expensive. After the journey in KLCC, went to have supper.. I had satay, roasted chicken... and chinese tea.. which cost [RM 7.00]. Altogether, I had spent around RM 46 today.
Back to cyber around 12.30am. Although it was a tiring day walking here and there, but I really do find myself relaxing and enjoying the day.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
3 days 2 night event
Had just finished another event. I would say that RC event would definitely nicer than this event. Maybe it is because week after week and that's why I can see the different of it. In RC, there are something that I realize, which is team work. Where in this event, I can say that there are no team work.
Day 1
Was told to be at STAD building at 3.00 pm but the participation was not that satisfying. Got scold by the adviser for the not satisfying participation from the clubs. Mood spoiled but still have to pretend to be happy.
Arrive at the scene and it was a rainy day. I get them all gather and to their dorm. Then, they were to had their dinner at 7.30 pm. The food was nice. By 8.30 pm, I gather them at the hall. First activity with the leaders of the club would be ice breaking. That session was quite fun. Then, the arrival of STAD people in the hall and I pass back to them since it was all by STAD module. Supper was provided and back to sleep at 11.30 pm .
Day 2
Woke up at 6.30 am in the morning. And, gather for aerobic. It was a nice exercise but unfortunately, I dont get sweat. Breakfast and then start with the first course followed by courses. Participation gather at hall at 8.30 am. I was with the participant. Counsellor asked me to help them to set up the projector. I had not one to find because all faci was enjoying chit chatting at the dining place. Well, to be honest I don't know how to set up that projector. But, I still learn how to set it up and yea, I succeeded. There is no one that I can count on when I am in trouble, that's what I realized since that moment. Adviser complained that why so many facilitator and they are not doing anything. He asked me to tell them to join the crowd. I know if they knew they would be the participation, they wont be joining with me.But, what can I do? It's a order from the adviser. I have no choice but to ask them to be the participation. Rakit session was on a raining season. I see all the groups was in the rain to finish up their raft. That's what called teamwork. It continued to rain and the night walk session cancelled. I have to come up with some ideas on what to replace that slot. I came out with some game station which will be held in hall. I observed every single officer in charge, and that moment... I knew they were not that satisfied with what I planned. Supper time as usual and bed time as usual.
Day 3
Woke up quite late since I am not involve in the morning session. But still I am the first to arrive at the gather place. The committees can even walking slowly down the stairs. Adviser asked me to lead for the morning exercise for not to waste time anymore. Back to breakfast and some activities before heading back to MMU.
What I would say on this event would be...
I admit that I am not a good leader, and had a bad temper too. I do sometimes feel like bursting but, I keep controlling myself and not scolding anyone. I failed to organize it to run smoothly.
Back to hostel and had a good bath and FINALLY released out my feelings. Felt better. Hope tonight I would have a good rest.
Day 1
Was told to be at STAD building at 3.00 pm but the participation was not that satisfying. Got scold by the adviser for the not satisfying participation from the clubs. Mood spoiled but still have to pretend to be happy.
Arrive at the scene and it was a rainy day. I get them all gather and to their dorm. Then, they were to had their dinner at 7.30 pm. The food was nice. By 8.30 pm, I gather them at the hall. First activity with the leaders of the club would be ice breaking. That session was quite fun. Then, the arrival of STAD people in the hall and I pass back to them since it was all by STAD module. Supper was provided and back to sleep at 11.30 pm .
Day 2
Woke up at 6.30 am in the morning. And, gather for aerobic. It was a nice exercise but unfortunately, I dont get sweat. Breakfast and then start with the first course followed by courses. Participation gather at hall at 8.30 am. I was with the participant. Counsellor asked me to help them to set up the projector. I had not one to find because all faci was enjoying chit chatting at the dining place. Well, to be honest I don't know how to set up that projector. But, I still learn how to set it up and yea, I succeeded. There is no one that I can count on when I am in trouble, that's what I realized since that moment. Adviser complained that why so many facilitator and they are not doing anything. He asked me to tell them to join the crowd. I know if they knew they would be the participation, they wont be joining with me.But, what can I do? It's a order from the adviser. I have no choice but to ask them to be the participation. Rakit session was on a raining season. I see all the groups was in the rain to finish up their raft. That's what called teamwork. It continued to rain and the night walk session cancelled. I have to come up with some ideas on what to replace that slot. I came out with some game station which will be held in hall. I observed every single officer in charge, and that moment... I knew they were not that satisfied with what I planned. Supper time as usual and bed time as usual.
Day 3
Woke up quite late since I am not involve in the morning session. But still I am the first to arrive at the gather place. The committees can even walking slowly down the stairs. Adviser asked me to lead for the morning exercise for not to waste time anymore. Back to breakfast and some activities before heading back to MMU.
What I would say on this event would be...
I admit that I am not a good leader, and had a bad temper too. I do sometimes feel like bursting but, I keep controlling myself and not scolding anyone. I failed to organize it to run smoothly.
Back to hostel and had a good bath and FINALLY released out my feelings. Felt better. Hope tonight I would have a good rest.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Insomnia Night.
8th Nov 2012, rainy day
I-nite was awesome.. From design to lightning. Although the cultural performance was a bit bored.. but the acting part was GREAT!!! Went back to hostel around 10.30 pm. And slept at 11.15 pm. I don't know why, but I cant sleep well. Woke up at 2 am to off the light, then 6 am, then 7.45 am. I had a nightmare as well. At first, early in the morning I was quite in bad mood. But, still have to force a smile on my face.
Hang out in SRC room till 4 pm to wait for my friend to help me to test the healer. When I saw him treat her so nice, honestly, was quite jealous of it. Wish someone will treat me that good too. Back to room to have a rest. But, unfortunately.. not a good respond. I cant rest as well. I just don't know why..
Celebrated my friend's birthday in tappers Shaftbury. It changes my mood from moody to happy. Just cant figure out why... but that's how I felt. Back to hostel at 10.30 pm and feel stomach ache. And, YEA.. tomorrow there will be another camp. I knew it wouldnt be as fun as RC camp.... but It's my responsibility to attend it.
Hope everything is fine.. =)
I-nite was awesome.. From design to lightning. Although the cultural performance was a bit bored.. but the acting part was GREAT!!! Went back to hostel around 10.30 pm. And slept at 11.15 pm. I don't know why, but I cant sleep well. Woke up at 2 am to off the light, then 6 am, then 7.45 am. I had a nightmare as well. At first, early in the morning I was quite in bad mood. But, still have to force a smile on my face.
Hang out in SRC room till 4 pm to wait for my friend to help me to test the healer. When I saw him treat her so nice, honestly, was quite jealous of it. Wish someone will treat me that good too. Back to room to have a rest. But, unfortunately.. not a good respond. I cant rest as well. I just don't know why..
Celebrated my friend's birthday in tappers Shaftbury. It changes my mood from moody to happy. Just cant figure out why... but that's how I felt. Back to hostel at 10.30 pm and feel stomach ache. And, YEA.. tomorrow there will be another camp. I knew it wouldnt be as fun as RC camp.... but It's my responsibility to attend it.
Hope everything is fine.. =)
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Tuesday, 6th Nov, rainy day.
Tuesday, 6th Nov, rainy day.
It had been raining for the whole month and I wonder will it be raining as well for this weekend. Sometimes, I do feel tired taking up so many post and yea... This coming weekend, will have to go for another course. Hope everything goes well. During these days, the campus is being flood with rain. I like raining season because it will not be so hot, but in the mean time, I hate it because my shoes will be all wet in the end.
After joining so many events, I learnt alot of things from people. How to manage people, how to manage time and how to manage self. I know a lot of people from diff clubs and societies, different background.. but in the end.. still ending up alone in my room. Well, my room mate is going for travelling and yea.. am alone in the room for this 3 months. No one to talk to during night time. Heard this song in the morning, from Lee Hom "Xu yao ren pei".. It suits me alot. And, miss home a lot. Wish I could go home right now, but... class.. HAIHH~~~
I havent been seeing him quite some time ago. Wondering where had him been missing. Perhaps he is doing event?? Gonna end up everyday with the same schedule... alone-ing.. =( Total EMO.
XOXO
It had been raining for the whole month and I wonder will it be raining as well for this weekend. Sometimes, I do feel tired taking up so many post and yea... This coming weekend, will have to go for another course. Hope everything goes well. During these days, the campus is being flood with rain. I like raining season because it will not be so hot, but in the mean time, I hate it because my shoes will be all wet in the end.
After joining so many events, I learnt alot of things from people. How to manage people, how to manage time and how to manage self. I know a lot of people from diff clubs and societies, different background.. but in the end.. still ending up alone in my room. Well, my room mate is going for travelling and yea.. am alone in the room for this 3 months. No one to talk to during night time. Heard this song in the morning, from Lee Hom "Xu yao ren pei".. It suits me alot. And, miss home a lot. Wish I could go home right now, but... class.. HAIHH~~~
I havent been seeing him quite some time ago. Wondering where had him been missing. Perhaps he is doing event?? Gonna end up everyday with the same schedule... alone-ing.. =( Total EMO.
XOXO
Monday, November 5, 2012
DRRO experience
Ending of 3rd week for Semester 2.Well, DRRO had finally arrived. This is my 3rd time joining this event but this time, I am joining as committee. Being a committee is better than being a member. Early in the morning, 5.30 am on Fri, went to gather at STAD building. But, nobody is there.Haven't been before that I walked alone in the campus this early in the morning. If I knew that they are not gathering so early, I would have go at 6 am. Went to library to rest for a while and waited till 6 am then back to STAD. Around 8 am, we depart from MMU and reached there around 9.30 am. I had been assign as an emcee for the opening show. Overall, I did not satisfy myself as I forgot about the speech by one of the VIP. It was such a shame on it. Hopefully she did not mind bout it. Throughout the whole day is exciting except that feeling a lil bit tired. For the first simulation, I had been the casualties. My case was laceration on my hand.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Mixed feeling
29th October 2012, sunny day, full moon. Attend my class at 9.00 am but went there a lil bit early. The class was empty. Photostated taxation Notes cost around RM 6 something. Damn expensive. Taxation class was just Okayy... EXCEPT his voice is a bit lower than usual lecturer. Think if I dont have enough sleep, I would fall asleep. My lunch would be in Pizza Hut, and yea.. It's been long time I din eat those kind of fast food. It was for my friend birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her!!! Wish her always that happy. Back in hostel around 4 something.. and rest till 6.00 pm. From then, I watched HK drama till 10.oo pm. I felt so guilty because I planned to study today but ended up.. watching drama and wasting time. Finished the whole series of the drama.. It's my 2nd time watching it. Somehow after watching that movie, I just hope there is someone that I could share my feelings to..
I met him today.. On my way to library. Guess what, I din even say Hi to him and I just walk off. What a bad friend I am.. =( I just scare that if I say Hi to him, I would continue having crush on him. So, just gonna ignore him.
Ordered my dinner at Homestyle restaurant. Cost RM 10. Guess I had spend alot this few weeks. Dad had given me extra money in the bank. I wanted to save it .. but I am spending more than before. There will be several meetings going on in this few day..
Class will be starting 11 am tomorrow, so I still have some resting time. Miss home every second of my life. At least there is people and nice food surrounding me. But, in hostel.. There is only 4 walls with no one and the shop that I used to eat were closed.
First week- Gamma- 2nd sem
28th October 2012, windy day...
Had my breakfast as usual and get a chance to be with her in UM library. She was doing research on her assignment and me, watching movie in the lib. UM is totally diff from our university. After few hours sitting there, finally can go home at 4pm. Drop by at Selayang Mall to buy something.. and yea.. Got ice cream!! Back to home around 5pm and had my lunch at that time. Went to bed on 5.30 pm and have a nap till 7 pm. Miss my bed so much and couldnt go home for 2 weeks more. Work or family more important? I think I couldnt balance it at all. I knew I hurt many people by the words that came out from my mouth. Totally sorry bout that. For the past 6 months... , I still remember the memories that we had been together. But today, I can tell that I totally forgot bout him. Due to the busy lifestyle, I do not have time to think bout all this. So, yes!! I can do it. I finally forget everything bout him. Even how he look like. Now, I believe time can heal everything.
Subject registration had become the hottest issue in my university. Thank to God that I manage to register everything online and escape from manual registration. But, kinda pity those who cant register for their subjects. I don't know how I could help them. I had been chosen as SRC but couldnt help them at all. Useless me... And yea, one of my friend told me that not to blame others but blame ourselves. Which mean, blame SRC for not doing their job well. I admit that would be our fault and not the management fault wholly.
XOXO
Michelle Darling
Had my breakfast as usual and get a chance to be with her in UM library. She was doing research on her assignment and me, watching movie in the lib. UM is totally diff from our university. After few hours sitting there, finally can go home at 4pm. Drop by at Selayang Mall to buy something.. and yea.. Got ice cream!! Back to home around 5pm and had my lunch at that time. Went to bed on 5.30 pm and have a nap till 7 pm. Miss my bed so much and couldnt go home for 2 weeks more. Work or family more important? I think I couldnt balance it at all. I knew I hurt many people by the words that came out from my mouth. Totally sorry bout that. For the past 6 months... , I still remember the memories that we had been together. But today, I can tell that I totally forgot bout him. Due to the busy lifestyle, I do not have time to think bout all this. So, yes!! I can do it. I finally forget everything bout him. Even how he look like. Now, I believe time can heal everything.
Subject registration had become the hottest issue in my university. Thank to God that I manage to register everything online and escape from manual registration. But, kinda pity those who cant register for their subjects. I don't know how I could help them. I had been chosen as SRC but couldnt help them at all. Useless me... And yea, one of my friend told me that not to blame others but blame ourselves. Which mean, blame SRC for not doing their job well. I admit that would be our fault and not the management fault wholly.
XOXO
Michelle Darling
Monday, October 22, 2012
An nyeong ha se yo ( Hello ) Lesson learnt from Korean Class
First day of class at 9 am. And it was Korean for beginners. Well, the lecture is cute with the slang of the english. All her body movement, everything she did.... OH!!! SHE IS PRETTY!!! After the class, went for manual add, but apparently, did not get any signature yet, and according to them the system is currently having problem. Well, they might try to register tomorrow morning. Lunch at FOM... cost around RM 6.. Thought that OCs are going to have lunch in HB3 but was disappointed that only one or two came up. Met with someone who looks familiar, wasnt sure who was it. And, I realized that.. Yea, he is coming back from intern today. Have been meeting with him several times... but, just pretended not seeing him. Cuz, I believe it would be awkward talking to him since the last time when we broke up. So, yea.. gonna take another road and not seeing him at all.
Had been thinking of another people all this while.. But, it's impossible for us. So, please forget everything and concentrate on my studies will lead me to a better future. I think I wont be meeting him as well. So, everything will goes well. Watching this Moonlight Resonance drama today.. and wondering if I ever get someone that good to be my brother or something. Well, all this while was hoping I got an elder brother that I can depend on. And, yea.. Miss my family so much.. Gonna be back on this Friday since the last convofest duty.
I hope tomorrow will be better than today. And everyday will get better soon. Manual add for subjects are troublesome and a long queue in front of FOM admin... Gosh, every year seems to be the same.
XOXO,
Michelle
Had been thinking of another people all this while.. But, it's impossible for us. So, please forget everything and concentrate on my studies will lead me to a better future. I think I wont be meeting him as well. So, everything will goes well. Watching this Moonlight Resonance drama today.. and wondering if I ever get someone that good to be my brother or something. Well, all this while was hoping I got an elder brother that I can depend on. And, yea.. Miss my family so much.. Gonna be back on this Friday since the last convofest duty.
I hope tomorrow will be better than today. And everyday will get better soon. Manual add for subjects are troublesome and a long queue in front of FOM admin... Gosh, every year seems to be the same.
XOXO,
Michelle
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Cameron Highland + Orientation
Tomorrow will be the last day of my holidays. Then, will be the starting of new semester.
2nd week of holidays....
After the convocation duty, went to Cameron Highlands and it was my first time going there. Was excited because I got to go there. Enjoy the tea over there and the cool breeze that even the air is cold and fresh. The air there would definitely be nicer than the air in Kuala Lumpur. Well, it was a 2 days 1 night trip. Besides that, I got to pluck my own strawberries in the strawberries farm. Bought strawberries on the way back and went to alot of place in there. Thanks to my friends for organizing it and inviting me to join. Appreciate it alot.
3rd week of holidays..
After the trip, I got to rest for a day and here it goes... Orientation for October Intake. I was one of the committee and was glad that some of the senior OC managed to join with us. On the first day of orientation, I was in-charged in the MPH for the registration and the tagging of the freshies. Then, the lunch was provided and the foods was nice. Finally got to taste some nice food. =) After lunch hour, it's time to meet with the freshies. I got to know my group members but I would say that I failed as an OC mobile.I failed to break the ice of it. But, luckily my partner is good enough to encourage them to mix with each and everyone of them.
On the second day, got to wake up early in the morning. Today, It is the longest day ever because the briefing was going on for the whole afternoon. I had to be in the hall the whole day, and my leg was pain like hell. I am just jealous that the DM got to sleep for whole day while the OCs can't. What to do, It is already planned. We had a nice sport session with the freshies together. And, the end of the sport session, we splash the water over them. It was fun to do that to them. HAHA!!~
In the last day of the orientation, it was the closing ceremony. Well, today I had to stand and walk for the whole afternoon. I can feel the pain in it but still forcing myself to stand. Had a headache due to not sleeping in the previous day for helping the special task people doing the decoration for Freshies night. Glad that I can help them. The freshie's drama was quite fun, but I couldnt figure out why I couldn't smile sincerely. Am just forcing to smile when meet with others. But, each time I see him smile, I smile. Oc's drama was fun and yea, It's a great experience to be involve in the drama and performances. Had a supper with them and, couldnt stand it cuz am just too tired.
Woke up around 11 am this morning, due to the director call for meeting. Had a great day with the RC.. XD
But, already missing someone... =(
Well, there's one person telling me that he had waited me for 2 years in order to get a phone call from me and to go out with me. The thing is,sorry to say it, but it cant be forced.
2nd week of holidays....
After the convocation duty, went to Cameron Highlands and it was my first time going there. Was excited because I got to go there. Enjoy the tea over there and the cool breeze that even the air is cold and fresh. The air there would definitely be nicer than the air in Kuala Lumpur. Well, it was a 2 days 1 night trip. Besides that, I got to pluck my own strawberries in the strawberries farm. Bought strawberries on the way back and went to alot of place in there. Thanks to my friends for organizing it and inviting me to join. Appreciate it alot.
3rd week of holidays..
After the trip, I got to rest for a day and here it goes... Orientation for October Intake. I was one of the committee and was glad that some of the senior OC managed to join with us. On the first day of orientation, I was in-charged in the MPH for the registration and the tagging of the freshies. Then, the lunch was provided and the foods was nice. Finally got to taste some nice food. =) After lunch hour, it's time to meet with the freshies. I got to know my group members but I would say that I failed as an OC mobile.I failed to break the ice of it. But, luckily my partner is good enough to encourage them to mix with each and everyone of them.
On the second day, got to wake up early in the morning. Today, It is the longest day ever because the briefing was going on for the whole afternoon. I had to be in the hall the whole day, and my leg was pain like hell. I am just jealous that the DM got to sleep for whole day while the OCs can't. What to do, It is already planned. We had a nice sport session with the freshies together. And, the end of the sport session, we splash the water over them. It was fun to do that to them. HAHA!!~In the last day of the orientation, it was the closing ceremony. Well, today I had to stand and walk for the whole afternoon. I can feel the pain in it but still forcing myself to stand. Had a headache due to not sleeping in the previous day for helping the special task people doing the decoration for Freshies night. Glad that I can help them. The freshie's drama was quite fun, but I couldnt figure out why I couldn't smile sincerely. Am just forcing to smile when meet with others. But, each time I see him smile, I smile. Oc's drama was fun and yea, It's a great experience to be involve in the drama and performances. Had a supper with them and, couldnt stand it cuz am just too tired.
Woke up around 11 am this morning, due to the director call for meeting. Had a great day with the RC.. XD
But, already missing someone... =(
Well, there's one person telling me that he had waited me for 2 years in order to get a phone call from me and to go out with me. The thing is,sorry to say it, but it cant be forced.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Convocation + ConvoFest '12
Convocation day already over, and that's mean.. Duty is already over. It's been a tiring yet exciting moment for us.
Day 1
Duty starts 8.30 am, but we gather at 6.45 am.. which means, I have to wake up at 6.00 am. Slept for only 4 hours but still manage to survive till the end of the day. It is my very first time to be in the Grandhall to witness the whole convocation ceremony although I haven't graduate yet. So, am grateful to be in there. But, it's also a very boring ceremony when the speech were too long. Convocation over, get to eat with staff and enjoy the ice-cream there.. (although it's melted) Continue for duty in Library. But, got complained that the foot massage were too expensive. Get to witness the opening ceremony for ConvoFest '12 and the Director speech. Well, the opening show were awesome as it gave me ideas on how to do an opening ceremony for events. Got called up after the event, and manage to reduce the price for the foot massage. Went to dinner with director, asst. director, and secretary as well.. in a Van. XD My first time riding on a van, it's great. Ended up sleeping at 11 something due to too tired after playing one whole day.Day 2
Many RC seniors will be graduating on this day, and I understand that some of them would like to wear nice clothes for photography session. But, my duty still carries on. Get to witness their convocation, on the stage itself. Am going to miss them. On this day, I was the leader and I managed to run the whole campus to make sure everything goes well. Met one of the very senior outside the grandhall with one of the parent. Chat for a long time till the graduating students came out. We gathered at the admin building to have a photo session with all the seniors. After the photography session, went to Library and found that there are some problems occurred. Went in to the library and heard the guard complaining bout some of my friends for being in there too long without doing massaging. I understand why my friends is there and also, in the same time, understand that the securities have the responsibilities to take care of our safety. And, that's why they are concern bout it. Just that the guard are being rude to them, that's why they reacted that way. So, cant blame anyone else. Found out that, I cant solve this kind of problem and need Asst.Director to solve it for me. Too far to be a leader yet. Went for lunch outside campus. Happy to be together with them enjoying my lunch. Back to campus around 5 something.. rested.... and.. YEAHHH!! Movie time!! Watched Taken 2 in Alamanda and had McD for my dinner. What a wonderful day to end my day.Day 3
Went to duty as usual, just that.. the leader of the day is late due to raining weather. On this day, I was the one who going to run in whole campus to check for the safety. Although it is tired, but will be better than just sitting around. Had a lot of fun with the convofest committees at the urus setia place. And this year committees rocks!!! Nothing special on this day... and everything ended up with too tired and slept at 9 something till the next morning 6 am. My dinner of the day was Maggi Mee.Day 4
Last day for duty for convocation. Woke up as usual at 6.00 am, went to Grandhall at 7.00 am. The leader was always late. Is this the Malaysian style? FCM were the one who is graduating by this day. Had breakfast as usual, but the dish were meehoon goreng, kuih and nescafe. If I were the one who is making coffee, It would be better than this. Duty at the sick bay place before going for a walk outside. On my way, I heard a song dedicated to me.... and I was like ... WTH!! I knew this was something that the committees did it, so I din care bout it. Most of the committees had their foot massage today. I guess the uncle should have earned alot, since we are giviing him money too. After duty, went nearby to had tong sui and take away Grill Chicken with BBQ sauce + rice for my dinner. Planning what to do tomorrow, since I had to stay till Saturday. Hope I wont bored off!!
XOXO
Michelle Darling
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Gathering
Well, just finished the last episode of Ghetto Justice 2, where the ending part of it talks about how they sacrifice for the person who they loved. It's a nice drama... This song keep playing in my mind.
The lyrics...
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.....
This song is by Leanne Rhimes.. The rose. This song is soothing and nice. Had a nice day with RC Seniors... The dinner, the McD, everything.. It made me miss the days that we are together. Those were the days.... I really happy to meet them all together today!! In the ending of the day, I met "her" in the McD at Subang.. Each time I saw her, I will remember back how I spoil people love.. Shouldn't have do it. It might be because of me, that they broke up. And, what goes around, comes around.. It happen to me... on how I separate them.. And, yea.. we are separated at last. Maybe it's God punishment to me.
In this morning, will be the starting of ConvoFest, and we are required to duty. I shall be on bed this time, but... Ahhhhh~!! Yea, sleep... forget everything.. There should be a new life tomorrow..
XOXO
Michelle Darling
The lyrics...
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.....
This song is by Leanne Rhimes.. The rose. This song is soothing and nice. Had a nice day with RC Seniors... The dinner, the McD, everything.. It made me miss the days that we are together. Those were the days.... I really happy to meet them all together today!! In the ending of the day, I met "her" in the McD at Subang.. Each time I saw her, I will remember back how I spoil people love.. Shouldn't have do it. It might be because of me, that they broke up. And, what goes around, comes around.. It happen to me... on how I separate them.. And, yea.. we are separated at last. Maybe it's God punishment to me. In this morning, will be the starting of ConvoFest, and we are required to duty. I shall be on bed this time, but... Ahhhhh~!! Yea, sleep... forget everything.. There should be a new life tomorrow..
XOXO
Michelle Darling
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Forever Alone
Thursday, 4th October 2012.
Woke up early in the morning and manage to see my sister in the house. It was unusual to see her in the house at that hour and was glad to see her. My lunch at house were petai sambal.. and it was delicious. Then, off to work with my dad. He went to Nilai to deliver his goods.. and I helped out on him. Back to Cyber and late for meeting. Should have ask my dad for dinner together instead of letting him go. Think back to my decision in deciding to duty for convo and attending a seminar which held in the weekend, whether.. Should I regret it...? or, should I not...? Started to miss the home cooked meal, my parent, and my sister.. Well, at least there is somebody beside me which is better to be in Cyber all alone. Perhaps, for the upcoming sem break, I should just stay at home.
I don't even know why I will be here in the first place... AIKSS! Or, should I just go back home on the 10th?? And, come back on 15th night? *sigh* I doesnt want to trouble my dad for picking me up and driving all the way from here to house , from house to here. Guess I better stay here, or perhaps.. I can keep fit? Yes!! That's my goal of it. When there's no food... I can be slimmer after few weeks!
Just hope for a better of tomorrow..! Gathering with seniorsss! Miss them all so much!
XOXO,
Michelle Darling
Woke up early in the morning and manage to see my sister in the house. It was unusual to see her in the house at that hour and was glad to see her. My lunch at house were petai sambal.. and it was delicious. Then, off to work with my dad. He went to Nilai to deliver his goods.. and I helped out on him. Back to Cyber and late for meeting. Should have ask my dad for dinner together instead of letting him go. Think back to my decision in deciding to duty for convo and attending a seminar which held in the weekend, whether.. Should I regret it...? or, should I not...? Started to miss the home cooked meal, my parent, and my sister.. Well, at least there is somebody beside me which is better to be in Cyber all alone. Perhaps, for the upcoming sem break, I should just stay at home.
I don't even know why I will be here in the first place... AIKSS! Or, should I just go back home on the 10th?? And, come back on 15th night? *sigh* I doesnt want to trouble my dad for picking me up and driving all the way from here to house , from house to here. Guess I better stay here, or perhaps.. I can keep fit? Yes!! That's my goal of it. When there's no food... I can be slimmer after few weeks!
Just hope for a better of tomorrow..! Gathering with seniorsss! Miss them all so much!
XOXO,
Michelle Darling
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
My Magic Man
Looking back in my October schedule... ARGHHH!! How can I put so many things in one month? Perhaps I am more suitable in a busier lifestyle. Just hoping all goes well... as I planned. Am full because of the kuih bought by my dad.. Delicious!
Day by day.. I am thinking of him..
I think, I had fallen for him. Well, he is cute, and It's like endless conversation between us. But, the point is... I don't know whether he feels the same. I had an imaginary boyfriend long time ago. But, somehow could find someone who will be the prince for me. Love just doesn't pop out suddenly. And, if it do... That love wouldn't last long. The sweet talk wouldn't work for me anymore. Be in reality, where there is no perfect guy in this world. My Mr Perfect would be someone who can create conversation and it will last long. Even if we debate, he would be the one that impress me with the knowledge that he has to make me keep my mouth shut. But, unfortunately... there's only few of them who is that type of guy. Guy who cooks are sexy. Especially those who help out in the housework. Besides that, charming and lovely guy would definitely catch my attention. The way he dress... the way he talk.. I believe there is some out there. Just that, the fate just havent arrive yet for me. He need not to be as handsome as the prince, but at least he knows the fashion.
Well well well, I had so many criteria on a guy, and who am I to get a guy like that since me, myself are not perfect either. Maybe that man, would remain as my imaginary..
Tomorrow, will be back to Cyber for meeting. Hopefully, everything goes well. *cross fingers*
XOXO,
Michelle Darling.
Day by day.. I am thinking of him..
I think, I had fallen for him. Well, he is cute, and It's like endless conversation between us. But, the point is... I don't know whether he feels the same. I had an imaginary boyfriend long time ago. But, somehow could find someone who will be the prince for me. Love just doesn't pop out suddenly. And, if it do... That love wouldn't last long. The sweet talk wouldn't work for me anymore. Be in reality, where there is no perfect guy in this world. My Mr Perfect would be someone who can create conversation and it will last long. Even if we debate, he would be the one that impress me with the knowledge that he has to make me keep my mouth shut. But, unfortunately... there's only few of them who is that type of guy. Guy who cooks are sexy. Especially those who help out in the housework. Besides that, charming and lovely guy would definitely catch my attention. The way he dress... the way he talk.. I believe there is some out there. Just that, the fate just havent arrive yet for me. He need not to be as handsome as the prince, but at least he knows the fashion.
Well well well, I had so many criteria on a guy, and who am I to get a guy like that since me, myself are not perfect either. Maybe that man, would remain as my imaginary..
Tomorrow, will be back to Cyber for meeting. Hopefully, everything goes well. *cross fingers*
XOXO,
Michelle Darling.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
The change of my lifestyle.
Gossiping can lead to disastrous . My second day of holiday, drama marathon. The show is pretty nice to watch. Besides movie marathon, helped out a bit on house work. I just realize that time can pass very fast.
Previously, during the semester break I din quite enjoy it because of some problem occurs. But after all the things I had gone through, I learnt a lot of thing. So, doesnt regret the decision I took and the thing that I did. The whole journey had made me climb higher and achieve greater experience.
These few days, I couldn't sleep well and had nightmare. Is it due to too many stress? or...? *sigh* Hopefully, I can sleep well soon.
Previously, during the semester break I din quite enjoy it because of some problem occurs. But after all the things I had gone through, I learnt a lot of thing. So, doesnt regret the decision I took and the thing that I did. The whole journey had made me climb higher and achieve greater experience.
These few days, I couldn't sleep well and had nightmare. Is it due to too many stress? or...? *sigh* Hopefully, I can sleep well soon.
Monday, October 1, 2012
First Semester Holiday.
Well, had done all my best for my final exam. And, YEAHHH!!! Guess I had done quite good for this semester compared to last sem. XD. Started my holiday with a trip to Sunway Pyramid after my last paper which is on Saturday. Bought one new pair of heel to replace my old one, and a shirt. Ate mooncake on that day with my besties.. Although my exams are over, but I still can't sleep well. Slept at 1a.m and woke up at 8 a.m. Guess my heart is giving me problem again.
On Sunday, went to Paradigm Mall to shop. Seems like the shop is not doing a very good business. The shops in there are almost like others shop in others mall. So, nothing special in there. But, I manage to get myself new shirts again!! WOHOO!! Thanks to my dad for paying it. Went back home around 10.00 am. And had my McD as my dinner.
Although it's holidays, but I only got 4 days of holidays and have to get back to work. This weekend will be starting of ConvoFest '12. I will be duty-ing on that day. The following week will be October Orientation.
It seems like I would be having a busy holiday. But, wish everything goes well. *cross fingers* Happy Holidays to everyone!!
Saturday, August 18, 2012
A new life begins..
I am back to blog! XD It's been so long since the last time I blog. Well, had been busy with the new semester, new life. Everything started with a great June orientation. The orientation was great, although a bit tired but I can learn a lot of stuff and contributed something back to the freshies.
Yea, what I can say now is I am becoming more popular than before after Orientation. Besides that, SRC election had made me become a smarter and more friendly to all people around the campus. So, through out June and July... I had forgotten all the unhappy moment and feels like a new life for me. That's why, I never regret on anything that I decided. After all the busy months, now it's time to focus on my studies. =)
Yea, what I can say now is I am becoming more popular than before after Orientation. Besides that, SRC election had made me become a smarter and more friendly to all people around the campus. So, through out June and July... I had forgotten all the unhappy moment and feels like a new life for me. That's why, I never regret on anything that I decided. After all the busy months, now it's time to focus on my studies. =)
Monday, April 30, 2012
3oth April 2012
Monday 30th April 2012
I watched a tv series show and suddenly some of the memories came back to me. I don't know why, but out of sudden i just felt that I had been treating him so bad. I shouldnt have do so. If, It's not because of me I dont think there's reason for us to break at all. Looks like I am repeating my own same mistakes. If only there's a chance for me to fix it, but I knew it wouldnt be possible. So, for now I just hope he will be happy and laugh as usual. I knew if I don't give up all of us are going to suffer. What I can do now is wishing that he is happy. Loving a person doesnt mean you have to get him/her. It can also mean wanting the person to be happy. I realizes that he is not happy when he is with me. So, why do I have to determine on it? I had been hurting 2 guys in my life. I dont have the right to love someone if I don't learn from my mistakes. I cant forgive myself for the mistakes I did. God had been giving two good guy in my life but I just dint appreciate them well. Regretting wont change anything. So, it's only the matter of changing. Before starting a relationship, I must be able to learn all my mistakes first. Or else, the outcome will still be the same.
My exam is near and I had been preparing since last week. So, I guess I can score it? Hopefully...
I watched a tv series show and suddenly some of the memories came back to me. I don't know why, but out of sudden i just felt that I had been treating him so bad. I shouldnt have do so. If, It's not because of me I dont think there's reason for us to break at all. Looks like I am repeating my own same mistakes. If only there's a chance for me to fix it, but I knew it wouldnt be possible. So, for now I just hope he will be happy and laugh as usual. I knew if I don't give up all of us are going to suffer. What I can do now is wishing that he is happy. Loving a person doesnt mean you have to get him/her. It can also mean wanting the person to be happy. I realizes that he is not happy when he is with me. So, why do I have to determine on it? I had been hurting 2 guys in my life. I dont have the right to love someone if I don't learn from my mistakes. I cant forgive myself for the mistakes I did. God had been giving two good guy in my life but I just dint appreciate them well. Regretting wont change anything. So, it's only the matter of changing. Before starting a relationship, I must be able to learn all my mistakes first. Or else, the outcome will still be the same.
My exam is near and I had been preparing since last week. So, I guess I can score it? Hopefully...
Sunday, April 29, 2012
29th April 2012
29th April 2012
Yesterday there was a rally on Bersih thingy, I was thinking why do they have to do so? The result still the same no matter what, so why waste time? The country aint that peace after all. People fighting with people, people stepping on each other in order to climb higher, people backstabbing each other, telling the lies in order to survive in the world is all i seen in this world. Competition is everywhere. The world now is getting more and more complicated for a simple person. This morning, i follow my dad to pasar and see the old people all selling veges, fish, chicken.. Although they are poor, but they live happily with their own income. Why need money, if it doesnt make our life happier. But, without money, can we be happy? Went to bath, and suddenly burst in to tears. Just so sudden, and wanted someone to be with me. I understand the feeling of alone. But somehow, i was glad that my parent are at home. At least not that lonely, but i need someone who i can talk anything. The stress in me, the sadness all i kept it to my ownself. And, like what my friend said, it will burst someday. It's just the matter of time. Appreciation is the most important thing i had learn through this whole semester. I somehow regretted many things and hope chances will be given. But as time goes by, it doesnt matter anymore.
AIM FOR THE NEXT SEM!
1) Be SLIM
2) Be SMART
3) Get someone who will make me love him and he love me. =P
4) Healthy
5) Be POPULAR ( haha.. )
Yesterday there was a rally on Bersih thingy, I was thinking why do they have to do so? The result still the same no matter what, so why waste time? The country aint that peace after all. People fighting with people, people stepping on each other in order to climb higher, people backstabbing each other, telling the lies in order to survive in the world is all i seen in this world. Competition is everywhere. The world now is getting more and more complicated for a simple person. This morning, i follow my dad to pasar and see the old people all selling veges, fish, chicken.. Although they are poor, but they live happily with their own income. Why need money, if it doesnt make our life happier. But, without money, can we be happy? Went to bath, and suddenly burst in to tears. Just so sudden, and wanted someone to be with me. I understand the feeling of alone. But somehow, i was glad that my parent are at home. At least not that lonely, but i need someone who i can talk anything. The stress in me, the sadness all i kept it to my ownself. And, like what my friend said, it will burst someday. It's just the matter of time. Appreciation is the most important thing i had learn through this whole semester. I somehow regretted many things and hope chances will be given. But as time goes by, it doesnt matter anymore.
AIM FOR THE NEXT SEM!
1) Be SLIM
2) Be SMART
3) Get someone who will make me love him and he love me. =P
4) Healthy
5) Be POPULAR ( haha.. )
Sunday, April 22, 2012
it's all about him.
MRC finally made it to best club. I went to Malacca and also to Muar for MMU awards day and celebrating my friend birthday.
22 April 2012
Woke up in the morning and ready to go back to cyberjaya. On my way home, we stopped by at a supermarket. I just suddenly feel like crying. I just dont know why. I knew something was wrong but I do not know what is it. The whole journey made me feel worst than ever. I started to remembering back the moment me and him together. I knew it was the past and he doesnt love me anymore. I am the one who is still clinging on this relationship. I feel myself so stupid for still hanging on to it. Well, I actually can feel that he is in love with another girl but he just doesn't want to tell me. Maybe I was too deeply fall in to it, that's why till now i can still regret and cry for it. I am just too useless, maybe.
22 April 2012
Woke up in the morning and ready to go back to cyberjaya. On my way home, we stopped by at a supermarket. I just suddenly feel like crying. I just dont know why. I knew something was wrong but I do not know what is it. The whole journey made me feel worst than ever. I started to remembering back the moment me and him together. I knew it was the past and he doesnt love me anymore. I am the one who is still clinging on this relationship. I feel myself so stupid for still hanging on to it. Well, I actually can feel that he is in love with another girl but he just doesn't want to tell me. Maybe I was too deeply fall in to it, that's why till now i can still regret and cry for it. I am just too useless, maybe.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
=)
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Verse 2:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
(Like a skyscraper)
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Verse 2:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
(Like a skyscraper)
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Saturday, April 14, 2012
14th April 2012
I have learned a lot of stuff this whole week when I see how "xing fu" my friend is. The true happiness isnt all about fame, money, or egoistic. It's about being with the person you love. And, this is what I dint notice before this. If, i had given another chance to love a person, I would definitely remember this statement. Happiness cant be bought. This is what I strongly agree on it. The true happiness I am seeking for is receiving msgs from the person I loved, seeing him every night, spending time together either by doing simple things or watching drama together. I would definitely be grateful if I could ever feel that again. I had been thinking of him all this while but i just couldnt tell it out. You can see my smile and hear my laughter but deep in my heart i still missing him. I just dont know why. Everything I do, I would think of the moment we together. But, I knew my wishes wouldnt come true all I can do is to keep my smile. I had been sleeping for only 5-6 hours this week. I don't know why but I just couldnt sleep without receiving his msgs.
Mid term exam had gone. Was kinda disappointed as I missed one question that carries 10 marks. but, I was happy receiving his msg on that night.
Last day of my busy life.. hope everything goes well.
Mid term exam had gone. Was kinda disappointed as I missed one question that carries 10 marks. but, I was happy receiving his msg on that night.
Last day of my busy life.. hope everything goes well.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
4th April 2012
I just realizes that all I need is just a simple lifestyle. I had never been so regretted in my life before. The things I did and the things I said. If only I could make it right again. A simple life like waking up in the morning and receiving messages from ur loved one, sharing problems with each other and chatting with each other will be a very happy life for me. Well, appreciating people surrounding you is what I had learned. When I started to learn bout this, it's too late for everything and regretting will not do anything better. How I wish if time could turn back to that time. I found myself can hardly smile back like last time. I am forced to give a smile. But, as my friend says time will heal everything. I really hope that everything will be fine soon. =)
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
3rd April 2012
I can't sleep last night and I do not know why. I was just thinking, If time could ever turn back all this things wouldn't happen. It's so out of sudden. Somehow I regreted that I do not take any action before this and when I started to take action, It's all too late. I have been struggling all this while and in my life, there's only a few things that made me really happy. But, all those is just like a dream. I found that I had been dreaming all this while, and when I woke up It does leave some impact on me. I do not know why God had created my journey to be like that, but I do not blame on anyone else but myself. In everything I do, I never regret in the end. But, what I did recently really makes me regret in every single way. I felt so alone. Well, nobody is perfect. I am not perfect either. The most touching moment is when some one is willing to change for the loved one. But, what is the most hurtful is when the change doesnt appreciate by the other person. I am not a person who easily give up. But, when it comes to an end, I had to give up. If, I dont give up It will only cause more hurt to both parties. Hmmm, all goes according to plan, I had decided to be a successful woman in the future since I have no confidence in love anymore. Every guy starts with he's different, but end with he is just the same with others. For now, I just hope that I can excel in my studies. That's all I need.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Week 2
Week 2 of Sem 3
It's been a great busy week for me and the event had finally over. I am happy that the event had over. But in upcoming event, i will be less attached to it and spend more time on my study since 12 April is my Midterm test.
I had gone through all the stages of emotion this few days. And really thought of taking some break to be alone for some time. He, is the one that i truly love. But, for a long time.. I had never seen his smile or laugh. I really wonder, are we really compatible for each other? I wouldnt give up on him but in the same time, I do want him to be happy. Whatever i do, seems to be wrong all this while. Ah, why do i keep emo all this while?? I should be laughing and smilling. That's the true side of me. HAHAHHAH!!!! I hope my mind can delete all those unhappy moment of me!
It's been a great busy week for me and the event had finally over. I am happy that the event had over. But in upcoming event, i will be less attached to it and spend more time on my study since 12 April is my Midterm test.
I had gone through all the stages of emotion this few days. And really thought of taking some break to be alone for some time. He, is the one that i truly love. But, for a long time.. I had never seen his smile or laugh. I really wonder, are we really compatible for each other? I wouldnt give up on him but in the same time, I do want him to be happy. Whatever i do, seems to be wrong all this while. Ah, why do i keep emo all this while?? I should be laughing and smilling. That's the true side of me. HAHAHHAH!!!! I hope my mind can delete all those unhappy moment of me!
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
My ideal boyfriend
It had been a great holidays since after exam. Thanks a lot to my friend who accompany me the whole week. I hope my holidays never end. Well, there had been quite some time that i do not blog because i was just enjoying my holidays outside. Hmmm, I had been thinking of my ideal boyfriend since this few days. Well, my ideal boyfriend would be:-
1) a very caring person
2) a funny person
3) a person who talks more than me
4) will pujuk me when ever i am sad
5) smarter than me
Hmmm, seems like i had a lot of criteria for my boyfriend and I am not a pretty girl, sexy, or what- so-over. But, this is most of the girls wishes.
Since my sister is not back home yet, some problem with him, and some sad sharing session with my aunt.. I just need some one to be with me right now. I just don't know why, but i felt lonely. Nah, gonna be better after some time. Thanks to my blog for giving me the space to write down my feeling and to those reader who read it.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Thaipusam day
2 days to exam. What can i say? Nervous and sometimes not in a very good mood. What i realized in this few days were, how good am i as a friend? I heard a lot of people saying bad things about me and my family. But that's my personal stuff. Why do they so CARE bout my life, when i dont give a damn on their life. I never thought of being betrayed by my friend. I always thought that, i have many friends... and whenever they need my help, i surely help. But, in reality the more friendly i am, the more people hates about me. And, ended up, no true friends in this world. Sometimes i do believe that friends is important, because they will help out no matter what.I do not think that this would happen to me where my so called friend would ever say bad things bout me. I was trying my best to make everyone happy and be friendly to them. In reality, there's no one you can hope on as friend.
But, as in degree, i am grateful that i know there's still some one be on my side no matter what. The one that i mix with now, will be my friends and i do believe they wont be backstabbing me. *hope* I hate people who doesnt believe in my words or anything and get offended if people saying that i lied eventhough i din't.
I had done my preparation on my exams, but still felt stress. And do forgive me if i had ever done anything wrong to you guys.
P/S: If you had problem with me, tell me straight to my face and no backstabbing me.
But, as in degree, i am grateful that i know there's still some one be on my side no matter what. The one that i mix with now, will be my friends and i do believe they wont be backstabbing me. *hope* I hate people who doesnt believe in my words or anything and get offended if people saying that i lied eventhough i din't.
I had done my preparation on my exams, but still felt stress. And do forgive me if i had ever done anything wrong to you guys.
P/S: If you had problem with me, tell me straight to my face and no backstabbing me.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Study week (23/1/11 - 1/2/11)
Chines New Year holidays is totally a boring holidays ever. Why MMU set the final exam after CNY? I can't really enjoy my holidays. The only thing i enjoy the most, is the time with family. I hadn't been at home for such a long period of time. And, meeting up with him, is totally incredible. He has change my boring holidays in to a memorable holidays. Well, we know each other since 19th January 2012. That's the first time i went out with him. Then, we started messaging each other and webcam-ing. Well, I had lots of fun with him together.
This is what i received from him and he said it was not nice. Hmmmm... But, i think it's nice. Thanks a lot to him. I bought one present for his birthday too.. Hope he will like it. =)
4 out of 5 subject i had revised.. But, the only subject i am facing difficulties. =( Hope everything goes on well next week!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Journey without stress
It's 3 more weeks to my final exam, and yet i still dun have the kick to study for my final. But this couldnt go on. Maybe because i am the person who can't lose. LOL.. The whole of this week, i played a lot because i know, once i reach home, i will concentrate on my studies. Yea.. no more emo moments for me in this week. Everyone went back to home town, and i MISS them alot.. Gonna meet them back after holidays. And in 2 more days, it's CNY!!~~ yea~~ so.. it's the same every year.. Hopefully this year would be something diff from last year instead?? HAHA...
Monday
I invited some of my friend to play badminton in the evening. And i realize that the gym is for female time in the evening. So, i went to gym then to badminton. Not many turn up in the badminton court, but i und that they do have presentations, FYP, assignments and even some went back to home town. But, i kinda glad that there's some one turning up. THANKS ALOT!
Tuesday
Class went on as usual. Then, went to see Mr Nawi for signing my sponsorship letter.. Finally i manage to meet him and he normally is busy. He promised me to give me back one letter and will call me on Wed, but no. WTH! After meeting him, it;s around 5.30pm and i followed my friend to have a tea break at old town. It's fun to hang around and chatting with them. Then had a dinner at the shop beside it. On that day, i din manage to study too. Wanted to sleep early, but ended up 1am. Thunder wake me up at 2am. Then i cant sleep back. I do not know why, but i just cant sleep back. So, i decided to watch one movie. Around 6am, i went back to sleep and woke up at 8am. =.=
Wednesday
My friend told me to pick me up at 10 am. So, i waited for him in zebra cross till 10.10am. No one turns up.. and i called him. He said he was still sleeping. MY GOODNESS!! but cant blame him. I din morning call him. Then went to Times Square to shop for my new year clothes. I kinda spend alot. And feel guilty for it. Then watched the Great Magician. It;s a great movie though.. HEHE. Highly recommended. HEH. Then went to eat dim sum. Nice, but i was feeling exhausted so any food will taste the same to me. Went back around 2 am, and trying to sleep. But i dun und why i cant sleep.
Thursday
I will be going back today. So kinda feel excited. Met up with him and had mcd together with him.And thanks for treating me MCD! hehehe... It's kinda fun talking to him. We talked quite alot of stuff this few days.
Wednesday
Monday
I invited some of my friend to play badminton in the evening. And i realize that the gym is for female time in the evening. So, i went to gym then to badminton. Not many turn up in the badminton court, but i und that they do have presentations, FYP, assignments and even some went back to home town. But, i kinda glad that there's some one turning up. THANKS ALOT!
Tuesday
Class went on as usual. Then, went to see Mr Nawi for signing my sponsorship letter.. Finally i manage to meet him and he normally is busy. He promised me to give me back one letter and will call me on Wed, but no. WTH! After meeting him, it;s around 5.30pm and i followed my friend to have a tea break at old town. It's fun to hang around and chatting with them. Then had a dinner at the shop beside it. On that day, i din manage to study too. Wanted to sleep early, but ended up 1am. Thunder wake me up at 2am. Then i cant sleep back. I do not know why, but i just cant sleep back. So, i decided to watch one movie. Around 6am, i went back to sleep and woke up at 8am. =.=
Wednesday
My friend told me to pick me up at 10 am. So, i waited for him in zebra cross till 10.10am. No one turns up.. and i called him. He said he was still sleeping. MY GOODNESS!! but cant blame him. I din morning call him. Then went to Times Square to shop for my new year clothes. I kinda spend alot. And feel guilty for it. Then watched the Great Magician. It;s a great movie though.. HEHE. Highly recommended. HEH. Then went to eat dim sum. Nice, but i was feeling exhausted so any food will taste the same to me. Went back around 2 am, and trying to sleep. But i dun und why i cant sleep.
Thursday
I will be going back today. So kinda feel excited. Met up with him and had mcd together with him.And thanks for treating me MCD! hehehe... It's kinda fun talking to him. We talked quite alot of stuff this few days.
Wednesday
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Week 12
ARGHH!!~~ I hated this feeling where I had to stay in Cyberjaya in the weekend. I do not know since when i had this feeling, but it just came today. Well, was planned to study for whole day, but went out for dinner. But, i do finished up one chapter of financial accounting and reporting. LOL..
I never do something that i do not wanna do. The reason i was still hanging on here is because of rugby duty. And when i asked my member for duty, all said they were busy. And from 22 members, only 3 came up and help. Really felt disappointed in them. I remembered when i was assistance commandant of my VAD, we were used to be the steady one. But, now, it's all changed.
I do not know why, but lately, i cant be really happy. Well, you must be seeing me smiling all the way. But the question is, do i really smiling? or just a fake smile? I can't hardly differentiate it either. Maybe because of studies? or...?
It's 12 am. And congrates to myself for sleeping early this week. LOL.. had been sleeping at 12am since the beginning of this week. KEEP IT UP!
It's near to chinese new year, and final exam at the same time. OMGOSH!
I never do something that i do not wanna do. The reason i was still hanging on here is because of rugby duty. And when i asked my member for duty, all said they were busy. And from 22 members, only 3 came up and help. Really felt disappointed in them. I remembered when i was assistance commandant of my VAD, we were used to be the steady one. But, now, it's all changed.
I do not know why, but lately, i cant be really happy. Well, you must be seeing me smiling all the way. But the question is, do i really smiling? or just a fake smile? I can't hardly differentiate it either. Maybe because of studies? or...?
It's 12 am. And congrates to myself for sleeping early this week. LOL.. had been sleeping at 12am since the beginning of this week. KEEP IT UP!
It's near to chinese new year, and final exam at the same time. OMGOSH!
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