Mixed feeling

29th October 2012, sunny day, full moon.
Attend my class at 9.00 am but went there a lil bit early. The class was empty. Photostated taxation Notes cost around RM 6 something. Damn expensive. Taxation class was just Okayy... EXCEPT his voice is a bit lower than usual lecturer. Think if I dont have enough sleep, I would fall asleep. My lunch would be in Pizza Hut, and yea.. It's been long time I din eat those kind of fast food. It was for my friend birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her!!! Wish her always that happy. Back in hostel around 4 something.. and rest till 6.00 pm. From then, I watched HK drama till 10.oo pm. I felt so guilty because I planned to study today but ended up.. watching drama and wasting time. Finished the whole series of the drama.. It's my 2nd time watching it. Somehow after watching that movie, I just hope there is someone that I could share my feelings to..


 I met him today.. On my way to library. Guess what, I din even say Hi to him and I just walk off. What a bad friend I am.. =( I just scare that if I say Hi to him, I would continue having crush on him. So, just gonna ignore him.

Ordered my dinner at Homestyle restaurant. Cost RM 10. Guess I had spend alot this few weeks. Dad had given me extra money in the bank. I wanted to save it .. but I am spending more than before. There will be several meetings going on in this few day..

Class will be starting 11 am tomorrow, so I still have some resting time. Miss home every second of my life. At least there is people and nice food surrounding me. But, in hostel.. There is only 4 walls with no one and the shop that I used to eat were closed.

First week- Gamma- 2nd sem

28th October 2012, windy day...
Had my breakfast as usual and get a chance to be with her in UM library. She was doing research on her assignment and me, watching movie in the lib. UM is totally diff from our university. After few hours sitting there, finally can go home at 4pm. Drop by at Selayang Mall to buy something.. and yea.. Got ice cream!! Back to home around 5pm and had my lunch at that time. Went to bed on 5.30 pm and have a nap till 7 pm. Miss my bed so much and couldnt go home for 2 weeks more. Work or family more important? I think I couldnt balance it at all. I knew I hurt many people by the words that came out from my mouth. Totally sorry bout that. For the past 6 months... , I still remember the memories that we had been together. But today, I can tell that I totally forgot bout him. Due to the busy lifestyle, I do not have time to think bout all this. So, yes!! I can do it. I finally forget everything bout him. Even how he look like. Now, I believe time can heal everything.

Subject registration had become the hottest issue in my university. Thank to God that I manage to register everything online and escape from manual registration. But, kinda pity those who cant register for their subjects. I don't know how I could help them. I had been chosen as SRC but couldnt help them at all. Useless me... And yea, one of my friend told me that not to blame others but blame ourselves. Which mean, blame SRC for not doing their job well. I admit that would be our fault and not the management fault wholly.

XOXO
Michelle Darling

An nyeong ha se yo ( Hello ) Lesson learnt from Korean Class

First day of class at 9 am. And it was Korean for beginners. Well, the lecture is cute with the slang of the english. All her body movement, everything she did.... OH!!! SHE IS PRETTY!!! After the class, went for manual add, but apparently, did not get any signature yet, and according to them the system is currently having problem. Well, they might try to register tomorrow morning. Lunch at FOM... cost around RM 6.. Thought that OCs are going to have lunch in HB3 but was disappointed that only one or two came up. Met with someone who looks familiar, wasnt sure who was it. And, I realized that.. Yea, he is coming back from intern today. Have been meeting with him several times... but, just pretended not seeing him. Cuz, I believe it would be awkward talking to him since the last time when we broke up. So, yea.. gonna take another road and not seeing him at all.

Had been thinking of another people all this while.. But, it's impossible for us. So, please forget everything and concentrate on my studies will lead me to a better future. I think I wont be meeting him as well. So, everything will goes well. Watching this Moonlight Resonance drama today.. and wondering if I ever get someone that good to be my brother or something. Well, all this while was hoping I got an elder brother that I can depend on. And, yea.. Miss my family so much.. Gonna be back on this Friday since the last convofest duty.

I hope tomorrow will be better than today. And everyday will get better soon. Manual add for subjects are troublesome and a long queue in front of FOM admin... Gosh, every year seems to be the same.

XOXO,
Michelle

Cameron Highland + Orientation

Tomorrow will be the last day of my holidays. Then, will be the starting of new semester.

2nd week of holidays....
After the convocation duty, went to Cameron Highlands and it was my first time going there. Was excited because I got to go there. Enjoy the tea over there and the cool breeze that even the air is cold and fresh. The air there would definitely be nicer than the air in Kuala Lumpur. Well, it was a 2 days 1 night trip. Besides that, I got to pluck my own strawberries in the strawberries farm. Bought strawberries on the way back and went to alot of place in there. Thanks to my friends for organizing it and inviting me to join. Appreciate it alot.

3rd week of holidays..
After the trip, I got to rest for a day and here it goes... Orientation for October Intake. I was one of the committee and was glad that some of the senior OC managed to join with us. On the first day of orientation, I was in-charged in the MPH for the registration and the tagging of the freshies. Then, the lunch was provided and the foods was nice. Finally got to taste some nice food. =) After lunch hour, it's time to meet with the freshies. I got to know my group members but I would say that I failed as an OC mobile.I failed to break the ice of it. But, luckily my partner is good enough to encourage them to mix with each and everyone of them.
On the second day, got to wake up early in the morning. Today, It is the longest day ever because the briefing was going on for the whole afternoon. I had to be in the hall the whole day, and my leg was pain like hell. I am just jealous that the DM got to sleep for whole day while the OCs can't. What to do, It is already planned. We had a nice sport session with the freshies together. And, the end of the sport session, we splash the water over them. It was fun to do that to them. HAHA!!~
In the last day of the orientation, it was the closing ceremony. Well, today I had to stand and walk for the whole afternoon. I can feel the pain in it but still forcing myself to stand. Had a headache due to not sleeping in the previous day for helping the special task people doing the decoration for Freshies night. Glad that I can help them. The freshie's drama was quite fun, but I couldnt figure out why I couldn't smile sincerely. Am just forcing to smile when meet with others. But, each time I see him smile, I smile. Oc's drama was fun and yea, It's a great experience to be involve in the drama and performances. Had a supper with them and, couldnt stand it cuz am just too tired.

Woke up around 11 am this morning, due to the director call for meeting. Had a great day with the RC.. XD
But, already missing someone... =(

Well, there's one person telling me that he had waited me for 2 years in order to get a phone call from me and to go out with me. The thing is,sorry to say it, but it cant be forced.

Convocation + ConvoFest '12

Convocation day already over, and that's mean.. Duty is already over. It's been a tiring yet exciting moment for us.

Day 1
Duty starts 8.30 am, but we gather at 6.45 am.. which means, I have to wake up at 6.00 am. Slept for only 4 hours but still manage to survive till the end of the day. It is my very first time to be in the Grandhall to witness the whole convocation ceremony although I haven't graduate yet. So, am grateful to be in there. But, it's also a very boring ceremony when the speech were too long. Convocation over, get to eat with staff and enjoy the ice-cream there.. (although it's melted) Continue for duty in Library. But, got complained that the foot massage were too expensive. Get to witness the opening ceremony for ConvoFest '12 and the Director speech. Well, the opening show were awesome as it gave me ideas on how to do an opening ceremony for events. Got called up after the event, and manage to reduce the price for the foot massage. Went to dinner with director, asst. director, and secretary as well.. in a Van. XD My first time riding on a van, it's great. Ended up sleeping at 11 something due to too tired after playing one whole day.

Day 2
Many RC seniors will be graduating on this day, and I understand that some of them would like to wear nice clothes for photography session. But, my duty still carries on. Get to witness their convocation, on the stage itself. Am going to miss them. On this day, I was the leader and I managed to run the whole campus to make sure everything goes well. Met one of the very senior outside the grandhall with one of the parent. Chat for a long time till the graduating students came out. We gathered at the admin building to have a photo session with all the seniors. After the photography session, went to Library and found that there are some problems occurred. Went in to the library and heard the guard complaining bout some of my friends for being in there too long without doing massaging. I understand why my friends is there and also, in the same time, understand that the securities have the responsibilities to take care of our safety. And, that's why they are concern bout it. Just that the guard are being rude to them, that's why they reacted that way. So, cant blame anyone else. Found out that, I cant solve this kind of problem and need Asst.Director to solve it for me. Too far to be a leader yet. Went for lunch outside campus. Happy to be together with them enjoying my lunch. Back to campus around 5 something.. rested.... and.. YEAHHH!! Movie time!! Watched Taken 2 in Alamanda and had McD for my dinner. What a wonderful day to end my day.

Day 3
Went to duty as usual, just that.. the leader of the day is late due to raining weather. On this day, I was the one who going to run in whole campus to check for the safety. Although it is tired, but will be better than just sitting around. Had a lot of fun with the convofest committees at the urus setia place. And this year committees rocks!!! Nothing special on this day... and everything ended up with too tired and slept at 9 something till the next morning 6 am. My dinner of the day was Maggi Mee.

Day 4
Last day for duty for convocation. Woke up as usual at 6.00 am, went to Grandhall at 7.00 am. The leader was always late. Is this the Malaysian style? FCM were the one who is graduating by this day. Had breakfast as usual, but the dish were meehoon goreng, kuih and nescafe. If I were the one who is making coffee, It would be better than this. Duty at the sick bay place before going for a walk outside. On my way, I heard a song dedicated to me.... and I was like ... WTH!! I knew this was something that the committees did it, so I din care bout it. Most of the committees had their foot massage today. I guess the uncle should have earned alot, since we are giviing him money too. After duty, went nearby to had tong sui and take away Grill Chicken with BBQ sauce + rice for my dinner. Planning what to do tomorrow, since I had to stay till Saturday. Hope I wont bored off!!

XOXO
Michelle Darling

Gathering

Well, just finished the last episode of Ghetto Justice 2, where the ending part of it talks about how they sacrifice for the person who they loved. It's a nice drama... This song keep playing in my mind.
The lyrics...
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.....

This song is by Leanne Rhimes.. The rose. This song is soothing and nice. Had a nice day with RC Seniors... The dinner, the McD, everything.. It made me miss the days that we are together. Those were the days.... I really happy to meet them all together today!! In the ending of the day, I met "her" in the McD at Subang.. Each time I saw her, I will remember back how I spoil people love.. Shouldn't have do it. It might be because of me, that they broke up. And, what goes around, comes around.. It happen to me... on how I separate them.. And, yea.. we are separated at last. Maybe it's God punishment to me. 

In this morning, will be the starting of ConvoFest, and we are required to duty. I shall be on bed this time, but... Ahhhhh~!! Yea, sleep... forget everything.. There should be a new life tomorrow.. 

XOXO
Michelle Darling

Forever Alone

Thursday, 4th October 2012.

Woke up early in the morning and manage to see my sister in the house. It was unusual to see her in the house at that hour and was glad to see her. My lunch at house were petai sambal.. and it was delicious. Then, off to work with my dad. He went to Nilai to deliver his goods.. and I helped out on him. Back to Cyber and late for meeting. Should have ask my dad for dinner together instead of letting him go. Think back to my decision in deciding to duty for convo and attending a seminar which held in the weekend, whether.. Should I regret it...? or, should I not...? Started to miss the home cooked meal, my parent, and my sister.. Well, at least there is somebody beside me which is better to be in Cyber all alone. Perhaps, for the upcoming sem break, I should just stay at home.

I don't even know why I will be here in the first place... AIKSS! Or, should I just go back home on the 10th?? And, come back on 15th night? *sigh* I doesnt want to trouble my dad for picking me up and driving all the way from here to house , from house to here. Guess I better stay here, or perhaps.. I can keep fit? Yes!! That's my goal of it. When there's no food... I can be slimmer after few weeks!

Just hope for a better of tomorrow..! Gathering with seniorsss! Miss them all so much!

XOXO,
Michelle Darling

My Magic Man

Looking back in my October schedule... ARGHHH!! How can I put so many things in one month? Perhaps I am more suitable in a busier lifestyle. Just hoping all goes well... as I planned. Am full because of the kuih bought by my dad.. Delicious!

Day by day.. I am thinking of him..

I think, I had fallen for him. Well, he is cute, and It's like endless conversation between us. But, the point is... I don't know whether he feels the same. I had an imaginary boyfriend long time ago. But, somehow could find someone who will be the prince for me. Love just doesn't pop out suddenly. And, if it do... That love wouldn't last long. The sweet talk wouldn't work for me anymore. Be in reality, where there is no perfect guy in this world. My Mr Perfect would be someone who can create conversation and it will last long. Even if we debate, he would be the one that impress me with the knowledge that he has to make me keep my mouth shut. But, unfortunately... there's only few of them who is that type of guy. Guy who cooks are sexy. Especially those who help out in the housework. Besides that, charming and lovely guy would definitely catch my attention. The way he dress... the way he talk.. I believe there is some out there. Just that, the fate just havent arrive yet for me. He need not to be as handsome as the prince, but at least he knows the fashion.

Well well well, I had so many criteria on a guy, and who am I to get a guy like that since me, myself are not perfect either. Maybe that man, would remain as my imaginary..

Tomorrow, will be back to Cyber for meeting. Hopefully, everything goes well. *cross fingers*

XOXO,
Michelle Darling.

The change of my lifestyle.

Gossiping can lead to disastrous . My second day of holiday, drama marathon. The show is pretty nice to watch. Besides movie marathon, helped out a bit on house work. I just realize that time can pass very fast.

Previously, during the semester break I din quite enjoy it because of some problem occurs. But after all the things I had gone through, I learnt a lot of thing. So, doesnt regret the decision I took and the thing that I did. The whole journey had made me climb higher and achieve greater experience.

These few days, I couldn't sleep well and had nightmare. Is it due to too many stress? or...? *sigh* Hopefully, I can sleep well soon.

First Semester Holiday.

Well, had done all my best for my final exam. And, YEAHHH!!! Guess I had done quite good for this semester compared to last sem. XD. Started my holiday with a trip to Sunway Pyramid after my last paper which is on Saturday. Bought one new pair of heel to replace my old one, and a shirt. Ate mooncake on that day with my besties.. Although my exams are over, but I still can't sleep well. Slept at 1a.m and woke up at 8 a.m. Guess my heart is giving me problem again. 

On Sunday, went to Paradigm Mall to shop. Seems like the shop is not doing a very good business. The shops in there are almost like others shop in others mall. So, nothing special in there. But, I manage to get myself new shirts again!! WOHOO!! Thanks to my dad for paying it. Went back home around 10.00 am. And had my McD as my dinner. 

Although it's holidays, but I only got 4 days of holidays and have to get back to work. This weekend will be starting of ConvoFest '12. I will be duty-ing on that day. The following week will be October Orientation. 

It seems like I would be having a busy holiday. But, wish everything goes well. *cross fingers* Happy Holidays to everyone!!