Happy Holidays

Yeah! It's holidays!! HEHE.. After all the hardwork i put in my final examination, finally i can rest for 2 weeks. One week to stay at home, and 1 week to stay at Cyberjaya. Well, in this two days i realize that my econ and management paper is much more easier than mid term exam. LOL. Maybe i really understand the concept.

In this week, I think of many things too. One of them is remembering all the sweet memories of my Ex. OMG! I know i shouldn't, but he really treated me very good when we were together. It made me realizes that i had lost a good opportunities to get a good guy. Well, he is a considering person, taking care of me whenever i was sick. Whenever i needed him, he will be right there. But as one of my friend said, past is past. Think of the future one. So, i really hope that my future boyfriend would be some one who will take care of me when i am sick, making me happy when i am down, spending time with me when i want and also stand on my side when my parent scold me. My future boyfriend should have all the following characteristic! LOL!! Where can i find such a person? I know i will not get back such a nice boyfriend since i already given up one.

Nah~ why am i talking about it now? >.< I should enjoy my holidays and think bout it later. HAHA. Happy holidays everyone.

Grievances again..

Sister back home from UM today. At first thought of going Lowyat to buy something but end up mom and sister arguing AGAIN! CAN'T MY FAMILY LIKE OTHER FAMILY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER??! ISH!!!~~ So, end up staying at home and hear both of them arguing. And that make me think of is it a right choice to be back in home because i dont like being the middle person and do not know who to side on.

Sister always compare how thin she is and how fat i was. ARGH!!~ I think i need to diet start on this very moment. Eat oni one meal a day. It's funny when when the one who get thinner get scolded my mom and the one who gain weight also get scolded. Besides that, every week i went back to home and she told me not to do that and when my sister said that she's not free to go home, she scolded her so loudly. Now i know why guys think women are like unsolved mathematics. Well, my mom is one of those. Or is it because she love my sister more that she want to see her more often?? No matter how hard i work on it, it's still the same. My effort is all wasted.  Maybe you can say that i scared of being hurt or disappointed? So the smaller hope, the smaller disappointment. It's seems like my blog is my best friend ever! It's full of my grievances, complaints and happy moment. But, it cant reply to me. HA HA.

First week of final examination(degree)

Start off my exam week with Quantitative Analysis. And, it was quite easy EXCEPT for 1 -2 question with 20 marks. HAHZ.. Did all the pass year paper but no use. Cuz the pass year paper is totally easy and totally different from my final exam paper. Then, sat for M'sian Studies paper and account paper. Well, M'sian studies paper is quite easy as the question is exactly the tips. But how silly i am to miss out essay question. I should have read it but i just miss it. Regret but no use. Anyway it is just pass and fail subject that doesnt affect my marks. =P

Account paper on the other hand was difficult. Now i understand why my lecture say that all the seniors found it hard to pass that subject. Hopefully my luck is good enough to let me score. So, 3 papers gone. Now left 2 paper which are econ and management which requires memorising skills. And you know how bad my memories are. 

The reason why i dont study at home was because i dont like the pressure that my mom gave me. She keep nagging me that i should STUDY instead of watching movies. And in her words, she keep repeating STUDY, STUDY and STUDY! I dislike people telling when i should study or when i should do what. Well, i am big enough to plan for my own stuff. My wish no.1 had achieve. I had one new phone with cameras, mp3, radio and it's nice. Thanks my parent for giving me the chance of having such a nice phone. I hope one by one my wishes will come true. God bless. 

Make a wish ~

I actually realized that i am very lucky to be in my family. It's really "xing fu" when both my parent don't argue. So, this few days staying at home would be my greatest choice! XD It's seems like staying at home is better than hostel. Last night, when i was enjoying song and playing game, my house suddenly no electricity. I dont know why, but the first thing i did was to message him. Why am i thinking of him when he doesnt think of me? ARGHH!!

I manage to finish my account pass year paper very fast and left myself having nothing else to do. So, i think of my wishlist for my first degree year.
Here are my wishlist,
1) New handphone (going to get soon- i hope)
2) excel in my final exam- all 3 sems
3) reduce my weight to 45kg
4) get thinner - think i have to exercise more on holidays
5) perm my hair - will be done after cny =P
6) Save money - at least RM 5 per week
7) Treat my parent well - not to lie on them, hope so XP
8) to be happy and cheerful all the time- not to let my friend worries bout me
9) get more nice clothes - hehee..
and FINALLY
10)  get a boyfriend! XD ( it's all depend on fate and i think this wish will not come true)

i hope it will all come true by the end of this degree year. At least there is still 2 semester to go.. LOL
Inspirational word:  If you lose your heart, it means you lose yourself and if you lose yourself you lose everything.

Depress when think back of those memories

I know i wont regret to go home to study. It had been better in food perspectives. But some how i felt empty in me. Mom and dad went out to shop today and left me alone at home. Neighbors singing emo song. Make my memories all back. And i miss my sister so much.. Cuz everytime, there will always be me and my sis at home but today, i am alone. The weather suits my mood. It's going to rain soon. Then when i open my facebook, it's full of couples picture. I really jealous of them cuz they had found the other half of them. I had done 2 pass year paper today and gonna be more hardworking for my finals. That's the only way can make me forget everything. =) Although i hate exams, but i will keep telling myself to keep focus and be strong for another 2 weeks. Then i will be free!~ =D

4 days in a row

Sunday
Studied Malaysian studies in the morning and went to KLIA to send one of friend to Germany. Kinda miss him after he had gone.. Took some picture with him and talk with him. Some seniors were there too. I din expect he will be there. But glad to meet him there. Reached MMU late at night.

Monday.
Went lunch with my classmate. And studied quantitative analysis. Then look for lecturer to mark my pass year paper. I realize that time pass by very fast. I should not waste my time.. But still i do it. HAHZ..

Tuesday
PTPTN staff will be in MMU. I woke up 7am in the morning and bath. Then at 7.30 am, i met with my classmate and had nasi goreng biasa at FIT. Then we headed to MPH hall . There were many people in front of the hall. Line up in the hall from 8.30am to 11.30am. The person there were cutting the line from behind. Everyone is so mean and so selfish. But some how, i am one of them. =( I am so sorry that i dint have any choice. Mom called and told me that her leg had injured and couldnt walk much. But she had recover very soon. Then went to Alamanda for lunch and shop for awhile till 3.00pm. Reached MMU around 4pm and went back to hostel and bathe. Rest for awhile and went to dinner at Cyberia with RC people. After dinner, we went to celebrate mooncake festival. The tanglung was awesome. It's so romantic when they decorate the pondok with tanglung. Basically, another day without studying anything.

Wednesday
Woke up early in the morning and ate roti canai for my breakfast. Planned to skip my lunch as i had no money by my side. Done a bit revision on account and my parent called. My dad called and told me that our house had been robed. 2 handphones, 1 laptop, 1 dslr had been stolen,. Other than that, nothing else had been stolen. And am glad that both my parent is safe. Thanks God. Decided to go back home and study and also accompany my parent. So, tmr gonna study accounts since i wasted a lot of time this week. Hope i can stay focus and be strong. Always needed somebody beside me but.. hahz..

Volleyball tournament

After one week of studying in hostel without entertainment, it really feel stress.. especially when the internet line always down.. But, volleyball did save me. I decided to join volleyball tournament which held yesterday. So, Monday,Wednesday and Friday was my practice day. By that i can really release all the stress in me. I really hate when there's 2 option for me to choose. And that day was on friday. But at last, i chose to practice volleyball as my skills is not up to standard yet. My heart was giving me problem and causing me cant sleep on Friday. But luckily i can sleep better last night. I slept almost 12 hours and my notebook was on whole night. Hope that doesnt spoil my notebook. =(
Yesterday tournament is great. I can learn quite a lot of thing from other players and universities. Although we dint win, but i really enjoy the tournament yesterday. Well, i want to be as good as other player. I guess i just need to practice more. It's funny when i can actually join the tournament. It had been 2 times that i get the chance to watch volleyball tournament by duty-ing as first aider. But now, i am actually becoming part of them. I know her by that too. And now, it's like we are friend. And i get to know more and more friends through volleyball club. Even Malacca people. Really appreciate to know them. They gave a lot of advice and give confident to me during the tournament. Love u guys, love volleyball. My whole body is so ache now but it worth it! hehehee.. =)
My final exam will be 2 weeks more. I keep telling myself to be strong for another 3 weeks and i can go enjoy.. But somehow it doesnt work. Hopefully God give the strength to continue this journey.

Bye holidays, hi Study week..

Holiday is over... How i wish that it would last longer.. HAHA.. This holidays is actually for me to study, but end up... SHOPPING with my sister.. And u know how fun it was... But it all ended today. Well, i woke up early in the morning today and went to University Malaya to send my sis there. It is the first day for her to stay there. SO we went out very early in the morning. Accompany her till 1pm and went off. And i miss her alot though... hahz... I think if she can online, i'm going to webcam with her..! hahaha.. UM... what can i say bout that?? I guess i prefer to stay in MMU instead of UM. LOLX! Reach cyber around 4.00pm and unpack my stuff and bring my parent to Jusco, SK to have their dinner. Well, i know the road there! =D

This week, i am going to study till i mad.. Cuz, final examination is very very near... So, i am not going to entertain anybody.. HAHAHAH! i love the feeling of getting good result. And i think it worth it. So, bye holidays and HI STUDY week.. =)