Week 2

Week 2 of Sem 3
It's been a great busy week for me and the event had finally over. I am happy that the event had over. But in upcoming event, i will be less attached to it and spend more time on my study since 12 April is my Midterm test.
I had gone through all the stages of emotion this few days. And really thought of taking some break to be alone for some time. He, is the one that i truly love. But, for a long time.. I had never seen his smile or laugh. I really wonder, are we really compatible for each other?  I wouldnt give up on him but in the same time, I do want him to be happy. Whatever i do, seems to be wrong all this while. Ah, why do i keep emo all this while?? I should be laughing and smilling. That's the true side of me. HAHAHHAH!!!! I hope my mind can delete all those unhappy moment of me!

My ideal boyfriend

It had been a great holidays since after exam. Thanks a lot to my friend who accompany me the whole week. I hope my holidays never end. Well, there had been quite some time that i do not blog because i was just enjoying my holidays outside. Hmmm, I had been thinking of my ideal boyfriend since this few days. Well, my ideal boyfriend would be:-

1) a very caring person

2) a funny person

3) a person who talks more than me

4) will pujuk me when ever i am sad

5) smarter than me

Hmmm, seems like i had a lot of criteria for my boyfriend and I am not a pretty girl, sexy, or what- so-over. But, this is most of the girls wishes. 

Since my sister is not back home yet, some problem with him, and some sad sharing session with my aunt.. I just need some one to be with me right now. I just don't know why, but i felt lonely. Nah, gonna be better after some time. Thanks to my blog for giving me the space to write down my feeling and to those reader who read it. 

Thaipusam day

2 days to exam. What can i say? Nervous and sometimes not in a very good mood. What i realized in this few days were, how good am i as a friend? I heard a lot of people saying bad things about me and my family. But that's my personal stuff. Why do they so CARE bout my life, when i dont give a damn on their life. I never thought of being betrayed by my friend. I always thought that, i have many friends... and whenever they need my help, i surely help. But, in reality the more friendly i am, the more people hates about me. And, ended up, no true friends in this world. Sometimes i do believe that friends is important, because they will help out no matter what.I  do not think that this would happen to me where my so called friend would ever say bad things bout me. I was trying my best to make everyone happy and be friendly to them. In reality, there's no one you can hope on as friend.

But, as in degree, i am grateful that i know there's still some one be on my side no matter what. The one that i mix with now, will be my friends and i do believe they wont be backstabbing me. *hope* I hate people who doesnt believe in my words or anything and get offended if people saying that i lied eventhough i din't.
I had done my preparation on my exams, but still felt stress. And do forgive me if i had ever done anything wrong to you guys.


P/S: If you had problem with me, tell me straight to my face and no backstabbing me.