7.10.13

9.00 am. Woke up and saw his message saying he can't come to accompany me to Cyber because he is not feeling well. Around 10.00 am, I decided to go to Cyber on my own to get Mr Nawi signature. I do not know why, but I feel frustrated and punch my fist on the wall. My hand did not injured ( luckily) but I cried. All the way to Cyber, I cried while driving. Well, it has been long time I did not show my feeling out. After 1 hour of journey, I felt better. Get his signature and decided to go to his house. I succeed to drive to his housing area using my GPS. Reached his house around 1.00 pm. He "pujuk" me for quite some time and I decided to accept his apology. 

Went to have lunch and to AEON Mahkota Cheras to buy some stuff. But, we did stop by at the game station and played two games. It was FUN.. I enjoyed every single moment together with him because he can really make me happy. Then back to his house and wait for dinner. Help a little bit his mom to prepare the dishes... Well, I did not help actually, just stand there to chat.. XD His mom is really good in cooking. Within 1 hour, his mom can prepare 5 dishes. We had dinner together. All the dish is DELICIOUS and am full. Thanks for the dinner. Drove home around 10.45 and reached at 11.45. 

I saw what his Ex wrote to him. I feel totally insecure and I asked him not to reply. Am I selfish? He said he want to be friend with his Ex.... Should I just close one eye and pretend nothing happen? Oh GOSH...I wanted to pity her because she is still young. But she has to understand that what is gone will not come back. She should learn to let go. But, I guess 2 years relationship is hard to be forget and let go. I wanted to understand this statement as well. But I just can't accept what she said to him. Maybe I am too fear of losing him or I am lack of confident in myself. 

XOXO

Michelle Darling

10 Reason Why I Am In To Him

Yesterday I slept at 2.00 am and woke up around 11.00 am today. It is always nice to sleep at home. Had my breakfast and start online-ing. Texted him to see whether he was awake. Surprisingly he was. He replied me that he was going to work at his dad shop and will be back around 7.00 pm . GOSH, 7 hours without chatting with him. Spend my whole day watching movies - one drama and one english move ( Grimm's Snow White). The movie is nice although I cant catch 100% of the movie timeline. 

Around 6 something, watched another drama using my phone. The line is sucks, the drama length is 43 minute but I took 1 hours ++ to finish one drama. Din't notice that he is back home and he facebook me. Opps! We had dinner together at the same time but at different place. 

I just realize that I need to be on duty but I did not have enough manpower. So, I planned to ask him together with one of my friend to go for that duty. He replied me ok, but the other one replied me "no" because of some reason. I think I am not a good girlfriend because I always ask him to come for duty although he did not join RC for a long time. Am glad that at least he willing to help me. 

I found that I had lost confident in myself. I do not know whether I can keep him with me forever or not. He is friendly and he likes to talk. He makes friends a lot. But, somehow when I see he chat with other girls or other girls find him I feel insecure. I have the confident in him but not myself. Maybe I am fear of losing him? But I guess what a guy want from his girlfriend would be someone who is "big hearted" and accept everything that he do, have trust on him.. and so on. 

Here is 10 reasons why I love him:

1) He is a funny person. Talks alot. Act funny. 

2) He know direction. The opposite of me. I easily lost in direction. 

3) He know how to drive safely (60 km/h) while I drive (100 km/ hr)

4) He is a gentleman. Help to wash dishes and know how to cook simple food. 

5) He changes alot. He normally woke up at 3 pm in the weekend but now he woke up at 10.30 am..He sleep early too.

6) He got muscle. I like guy who got muscle. He can carry alot of stuff.. XD

7) He willing to take public transport to my housing area. He willing to walk to the bus station for 10 min.

8) He is a responsible person. Responsible towards family. He introduces me to his close friends and not keeping it secret. 

9) He is cute when he smiles. I like the way he smile. I like the song he sang to me ( Love u u) =)

10) He is willing to improve his english by correcting each post he posted on the blog.

XOXO
Michelle Darling

An Awesome Weekend

Woke up at 9.00 am. Called him asking if he is on the way to my house. But, surprisingly he just woke up when I called ( Luckily, if not I wouldnt make it on time and he would be waiting for me). I know he is tired but he still take the public transport to my housing area. I am kinda touched on his action but in the same time, I am selfish? I asked him to come to my house with public transport then I drove to his house for badminton. He sang one song to me.... Could this be our love song?

When he reached, I am super happy to meet him because I had been missing him. I drove all the way to his house with my phone gps. Well, that gps did not let me down. Then, I felt hungry and he cook maggi mee for me. It is tasty although it is only maggi mee. At 2.30 pm, went badminton with his friends and also his bro. Played badminton till 5 something..... The match is awesome because I partner with him. It is super exciting moments. After playing badminton, went back to bath and then out to eat dinner. After dinner, we went to Kuchai Lama, FoodTalk. We played one game. Guess what? The game is pretty new to me. But, still I learned how to play. The whole game is just so fun. Fun time will goes through so fast. When I on the way to my car, he helped me to carry my bag. I feel so "bahagia" that time. Around 10.45 pm, drive all the way to his house then to my house. Reached home around 12.20 am... and feeling tired now...

XOXO
Michelle Darling

The Angel and Devil Part of Me

Morning wake up at usual time. Online and thought of watching drama whole day. Then suddenly thought of " OH SHIT! I forgotten I have to pass my proposal to the advisor  before giving to Mr Nawi to sign. " I texted her and she told me that she will be available today and on Monday morning 9 am. And, I was like... damn! how can I reach on Mon morning.. by 9 am?? means I have to get out from my house at 7 am... So, I decided to go today.. although is only for one signature... I travelled for 2 hrs ++ . When I on the way there, I look to the road opposite and saw that it was jammed. I planned to stay at Cyber for a while... But, I got nothing to do over there. So, I took the risk and traveled home. Well, it's not very jam... just a slight one. I love driving because driving let me clear my mind. 

I had done a big mistake today. I asked him to go Cyber to accompany me. But in the first thought, he does not involve in this at all. Will it fair for him? If he would to travel there, it will incur some expenses where he doesn't have to incur. In the second thought, I wanted to see him. That's why I hope he will be there. When he told me he was busy, I don't know why I will burst in to anger. I shouldn't have say those word to him. It was my wrong. Along the way, the good side of me was thinking.. he should not incur the expenses and he was busy with his own stuff.. but the evil side of me was asking whether am I important to him? Why din't he come?  Why would he put his work first then only me? My heart was all mixed up. The good side of me and the evil side of me. But, in the last.. I know that he is important to me. So, I rethink again and I know I should not be so childlish and have such temper. 

Dinner, dad bought us out. We eat around RM 48 ++. Well, it had been quite some time I did not eat home cook meal. The whole month eating outside really make me sick. I do not have the appetite anymore. Holiday 2 weeks past, there is only one more week to go.. I think.. So, am going to treasure this holiday. I learned from the past experience to appreciate what each person had done to me. Treasure them before I lose them.

XOXO
Michelle Darling

3 October 2013

3 October 2013

Well, it has been long time din blog about anything because was quite busy with my studies. First sem of third year Degree had just over. In another one more semester I will be going intern soon!! Yeah~~! Nothing special happened throughout the semester... except getting to know him. He, the one who made my first sem days wonderful. Although there is some up and down... But, who in the relationship do not go through it? He helped me alot in cheering me up. The days with him seems so fast past... but the days without him seems so slow to past. Many will be surprise why I would be with him. But, I believe I wouldnt choose wrong. Well, I know I broke promises I made to someone else but things changes so fast. The moments that we spent on each other seems so happy. Each moment that I had with him is totally different feels from those before him. How could that be. I thought I could live without him, but each time I can't see him.. I feel I miss him. 

Apart from it, I had been busy organizing events. Keeping academic with curriculum balance is not an easy job. I felt that I am not a good leader. I should have done better than this. My committees one by one disappear. Is it the problem is not with anyone of them but ME? I thought I am strong like a guy, but somehow I am not. I dare not show the real emotion of me. All I could is just showing to others that I can do it and I am strong and I will not cry. In fact, I am not . But, in the end, I still have to get things done and be strong, isn't? 

Today would be two month anniversary for us. I hope it will be a long lasting relationship. Although we celebrate it with some temple work, but who cares... as long as I am with him. Kinda surprise that I know the road all the way to Kajang and know how to come back to my house. I AM JUST SO SMART! Had been skype-ing with him.. and had a lot of fun. Surprisingly, my mood changed when he asked me to change to digi num and I thought of what his ex wrote in her blog.  Anyway, shouldnt think that much..... and am too exhausted to think bout it too.. So, night peeps. 

XOXO

Michelle Darling