14th April 2012

I have learned a lot of stuff this whole week when I see how "xing fu" my friend is. The true happiness isnt all about fame, money, or egoistic. It's about being with the person you love. And, this is what I dint notice before this. If, i had given another chance to love a person, I would definitely remember this statement. Happiness cant be bought. This is what I strongly agree on it. The true happiness I am seeking for is receiving msgs from the person I loved, seeing him every night, spending time together either by doing simple things or watching drama together. I would definitely be grateful if I could ever feel that again. I had been thinking of him all this while but i just couldnt tell it out. You can see my smile and hear my laughter but deep in my heart i still missing him. I just dont know why. Everything I do, I would think of the moment we together. But, I knew my wishes wouldnt come true all I can  do is to keep my smile. I had been sleeping for only 5-6 hours this week. I don't know why but I just couldnt sleep without receiving his msgs.
Mid term exam had gone. Was kinda disappointed as I missed one question that carries 10 marks. but, I was happy receiving his msg on that night.

Last day of my busy life.. hope everything goes well.

4th April 2012

I just realizes that all I need is just a simple lifestyle.  I had never been so regretted in my life before. The things I did and the things I said. If only I could make it right again. A simple life like waking up in the morning and receiving messages from ur loved one, sharing problems with each other and chatting with each other will be a very happy life for me. Well, appreciating people surrounding you is what I had learned. When I started to learn bout this, it's too late for everything and regretting will not do anything better. How I wish if time could turn back to that time. I found myself can hardly smile back like last time. I am forced to give a smile. But, as my friend says time will heal everything. I really hope that everything will be fine soon. =)

3rd April 2012

I can't sleep last night and I do not know why. I was just thinking, If time could ever turn back all this things wouldn't happen. It's so out of sudden. Somehow I regreted that I do not take any action before this and when I started to take action, It's all too late. I have been struggling all this while and in my life, there's only a few things that made me really happy. But, all those is just like a dream. I found that I had been dreaming all this while, and when I woke up It does leave some impact on me. I do not know why God had created my journey to be like that, but I do not blame on anyone else but myself. In everything I do, I never regret in the end. But, what I did recently really makes me regret in every single way. I felt so alone. Well, nobody is perfect. I am not perfect either. The most touching moment is when some one is willing to change for the loved one. But, what is the most hurtful is when the change doesnt appreciate by the other person. I am not a person who easily give up. But, when it comes to an end, I had to give up. If, I dont give up It will only cause more hurt to both parties. Hmmm, all goes according to plan, I had decided to be a successful woman in the future since I have no confidence in love anymore. Every guy starts with he's different, but end with he is just the same with others. For now, I just hope that I can excel in my studies. That's all I need.